August 6, 2008... It was an extremely hot summer in the Middle East. But not even the almost 50 degrees Celsius scorching weather can beat the intense desire that was burning in my heart that day.
It was the day motherhood became a reality for me...
I gave birth to my first-born son.
From the time I was brought by my husband to the hospital, everything seemed to happen so fast. One moment I was in the pre-labor room, then I was taken to have an ultrasound where it was discovered that my umbilical cord was tightly looped around my baby's neck. Next thing I knew, I was already giving birth via emergency C-section.
At first, I couldn't believe that everything was happening for real and that the time I had long been waiting for had finally arrived.
The moment I first heard the cry of my little one, I knew my life will never be the same again. At the first sight of him, it felt as if we were the only two people inside that room. Tears of joy were forming in my eyes and my heart was so filled with love. I finally got my gift!
My husband and I struggled to get pregnant for years. I have a thyroid condition. It is possible for me to conceive but it will definitely be difficult. One year into our marriage, I suffered a miscarriage. Never in my life did I ever felt so brokenhearted at the loss of my unborn child.
And years after that, my husband and I tried and tried to have a child... but it never came. There were times when our lovemaking became too functional - that we NEED to do it because we WANTED a baby so badly. Every month I would get my monthly period, I would lock myself up inside the bathroom and cry for hours. Whenever I would see a pregnant woman or a somebody else's baby, it always felt like life was so unfair. It was a tough time for me and my husband. But our love for each other grew stronger as we held on to one another for strength and comfort.
I didn't want to blame God but sometimes I would. There were times when I simply could not believe how He can allow some women to get pregnant only to have them abort or throw away their gift of life. While here I am longing so much to be a mother yet, God wouldn't give me the miracle I was hoping for.
But God continued to assure me that my moment will come in His own perfect time.
And indeed, my surprise blessing came after 4 years of waiting!
When I first held my newborn son in my arms, time stood still. For a moment it seemed like I was holding him so close to my heart and I was afraid to let go. It all seemed like a dream and I didn't want to wake up. All those painful years I went through waiting for him was definitely worth it. I knew that very instant that this wonderful miracle I was holding will change my life forever.
The day I gave birth ... I was given a new life to nourish and a new life to live. I embraced my new role as a mother. It's definitely not going to be an easy task. But life with my son will be a new journey I am looking forward to experiencing together with my husband.
I gave birth to my first-born son.
From the time I was brought by my husband to the hospital, everything seemed to happen so fast. One moment I was in the pre-labor room, then I was taken to have an ultrasound where it was discovered that my umbilical cord was tightly looped around my baby's neck. Next thing I knew, I was already giving birth via emergency C-section.
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| My wonderful gift! |
At first, I couldn't believe that everything was happening for real and that the time I had long been waiting for had finally arrived.
The moment I first heard the cry of my little one, I knew my life will never be the same again. At the first sight of him, it felt as if we were the only two people inside that room. Tears of joy were forming in my eyes and my heart was so filled with love. I finally got my gift!
My husband and I struggled to get pregnant for years. I have a thyroid condition. It is possible for me to conceive but it will definitely be difficult. One year into our marriage, I suffered a miscarriage. Never in my life did I ever felt so brokenhearted at the loss of my unborn child.
And years after that, my husband and I tried and tried to have a child... but it never came. There were times when our lovemaking became too functional - that we NEED to do it because we WANTED a baby so badly. Every month I would get my monthly period, I would lock myself up inside the bathroom and cry for hours. Whenever I would see a pregnant woman or a somebody else's baby, it always felt like life was so unfair. It was a tough time for me and my husband. But our love for each other grew stronger as we held on to one another for strength and comfort.
I didn't want to blame God but sometimes I would. There were times when I simply could not believe how He can allow some women to get pregnant only to have them abort or throw away their gift of life. While here I am longing so much to be a mother yet, God wouldn't give me the miracle I was hoping for.
But God continued to assure me that my moment will come in His own perfect time.
And indeed, my surprise blessing came after 4 years of waiting!
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| Day 1 as a Mom! |
When I first held my newborn son in my arms, time stood still. For a moment it seemed like I was holding him so close to my heart and I was afraid to let go. It all seemed like a dream and I didn't want to wake up. All those painful years I went through waiting for him was definitely worth it. I knew that very instant that this wonderful miracle I was holding will change my life forever.
The day I gave birth ... I was given a new life to nourish and a new life to live. I embraced my new role as a mother. It's definitely not going to be an easy task. But life with my son will be a new journey I am looking forward to experiencing together with my husband.
Motherhood is indeed a wonderful gift and every new life is indeed a miracle!
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